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Entah apa yang ia pikirkan

Entah apa yang ia kenang

Entah apa yang ia andaikan

Siapa?

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Siapa yang kau kenang?

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Tanpa mengetahui apa yang dirasakannya

Diam, tidak ada jawaban

As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts. What doesn’t, doesn’t. 

Time solves most things. And what time can’t solve, you have to solve yourself.

—Haruki Murakami

We always say that our life isn't perfect.

Things don't go as like we wanted.

Things fall apart beyond our expectations.

Feeling dissatisfied with ourself.

Feeling we never gonna be good enough.

But that's how life works right?

Disappointment, frustration, regret, anger, sadness

And all the other things in between.

Well to be honest, it got me thinking :

"Life will break you up no matter what happen"

When the bad things happened I guess everybody has their own different parts.

And in my case, I got two parts of me that's very contradictory.

The first part says : 

Why bother? why care? why to fix things that already fall apart?

And the other part says :

Well, it's just a bad day, not a bad life. Be tough now, things gonna get better than you could ever imagine.

Every souls needs to be happy. 

Everyone wants to be happy. even the bad guys.

I think every human being deserve to be happy.

But yeaahh you know how life is. 

You know how rude he could be

You know how mean he could be

You know how asshole he could turn into.

But what's life without a little mess?

The rainbow won't come before the rain does right?

"Life isn't about having things to enjoy your life. But it's about enjoying your life with the things you have"

Just choose to be happy. It's good for your health. Don't waste the life that God has given to you with pain.

It's not an easy thing to do thou, but it's worth a try. Make your very own happiness, cause happiness it's always there, right at your front door. You just gotta let it in. :)

"Don't put the key to your happiness into someone else pocket"

Night & Music

It'll sound better if I wrote "Music & Night" right? yea well I don't. Cause I like N more rather than M :p

Ok let's get back to topic.

Night.

I like the night time way more better than the day time. Why? because I find the night time is more appealing than the day time. I always love the atmosphere of the night time, it was very calm, there's not rush, and life was just perfect.

If you go out to the city,where the street are broad, where tall-modern building is everywhere, and where the lights are brighten and blinking everywhere, the cold cool air, the stars are blinking, the skies are shining, and the moon.. right there, up in the sky, glowing. Well that's what I love about the night time.

Not just in the city thou, when I at my house and I've just been through something awful the night time is my choice to calm myself down or to let it all go away. 

At night I feel like it's "me time" you know, it's the only time in this 24hours that all I can think about my life, what just happened, what I want to do next, what's my plan for this, what's my plan for that, rewinding what just happened that day, remembered his face, his smile, our conversation, what should i do now, what should I've done then, wishing I never do that, never said that, feeling so stupid for what I didn't do, feel sorry for my self, envying someone, hating the score that I get and blablabla

You see, there's a lot that going on in my mind at night. And it's the only chance for me to introspecting and think about me and my life.

If people sat outside and looked at the stars each night, I bet they would live differently. Cus if you just look at the skies and look at yourself at the same time, you would see yourself from a very different point of view. You're gonna realizing something that you didn't before, something you never thought been there before, something... unpredictable.

"I believe in whatever gets you through the night. Night is the hardest time to be alive just to see the truth. For me anyway, it lasts so long, and 4am knows my secret"

The Eyes.

They say "the eyes are the window to the soul". Well for me, is more than that.

The eyes could tell you more than words could ever say. They tell you the unspoken ones. Just by looking people's eyes, you'll know more than she/he could ever tell.

You know, I've met people who has a very strong stare and i kinda like it. It's more like i'm addicted to it. Is like when you see his eyes you'd know what's on his mind or what he feels about you or something in common.

It's really something you know, when you look people in the eye and you started to feel some un-explainable feelings. Like happy, sad, curious or whether she/he like you or not.

But the feelings isn't the same for all people. Is not like when you looked into strangers eyes and you started to feel they love you right?

 For the example when you looked into one of your best friend's eyes you'll sure that both of your brain just think the same thing. Or when you look your mother's eyes you're sure in any minute she would be mad at you. Or when you look into your favorite person eyes you'd know whether he liked you, loved you, or worst, hated you.

"I could look into your eyes and get lost for hours"

From women’s eyes this doctrine I derive. 

They sparkle still the right Promethean fire.They are the books, the arts, the academes,That show, contain and nourish all the world -Shakespeare 

                            " The eyes are the gateway to our souls"

Nazzel Dazzle

As you can see i named my blog Nazzel Dazzle. Maybe some of you guys wondered what's that mean. Well... actually it has no meaning hehe

I made that name when i wanted to sign up for my new tumblr's account cus i forgot the old one. My keyword is Dazzle. Idk why but i like that word cus i find it fascinating.

So, i started to think what word that rhymes with "Dazzle" & i also tried to put letter "N" in that word (i also love letter N since my nickname start with one :p).

Anddddd voila! after a few minutes playing with my thoughts i found a word that rhymes with Dazzle (which I'm very excited about it)

Then, after that time I always named my whatever must be named with "Nazzel Dazzle"

i named it for my tumblr's account, my weheartit account, my blog and etc.

Well hello there! I don't even know why I'm using blogger again. And maybe I'm gonna filled it with some of my personal one. Sooo enjoy! :D