HAPPY Z016!!!

WELL... WELCOME TO THE NEW YEAR KIDS!

I'm not going to tell you my "new year resolutions" cus I won't write that down nor I plan to make a new year resolutions. I just want to say happy new year here, in my blog, since I haven't write in a long long while. So, I know my blog is random and it was beyond my expectations. BUT. on this new year I will try to write everything down and (hopefully) regularly. 

So cheers to the whole new blank page guys! 

Xx, N

i hate me

I'm a depraved human
A sinner
A rebel

I disappoint myself
I may not be seen as a failure
But I am tho, inside
I'm a failure inside

I'm a failure for myself
I failed me
I don't like me

I hate me.

Suka Cita?

Apa itu suka?

Apa itu cita?

Yang kutahu hanya luka

Apa itu suka?

Apa itu cita?

Yang kutahu hanya rasa

Rasa kecewa

Rasa hampa

Anta

Apa itu suka?

Apa itu cita?

Yang kutahu hanya nestapa

Apa itu suka?

Apa itu cita?

Yang kutahu semuanya fana

Ilusi semata

I wanna feel alive.

it's been a long time since i feel alive
could i get myself back?
could i get my soul back?
i get used to pretend.
i get used to ignore
i get used to not to feel
i get used to not live